Things that make me fear to be in love.

Assalamualaikum semua. Apa khabar ya?

Dah lama tak menulis. Terkejut tengok tajuk di atas? Yes, I really mean it. I do want to write about it. Thanks to Sister Nurulbadiah Lai, inspiring me to write something that really express what u feel. I love you too sis. :)

I'd been in love, before. But I don't want to make the feeling happen again, unless, I am seriously getting married. Why? There are so many things happen that makes me fear of this gender, "male", or simply says, "guys". I know there are guys that are good out there, and I am not offending you guys. What I am talking here is about some guys that had make me feel the fear, fear of love.

1. Insist.

I hate this kind of guy that keep forcing people to do this and that. In a relationship, you should be tolerate, and understand each other. We are human. Not a machine that can be set up. We are human. We have our own need, interest, opinion and so on. Do understand us, and we'll understand you. There is a saying that says, "To make people listen to you, you have to listen first".

2. Take advantage.

This is also irritating. I know you are a guy, with  feeling. Take advantage here that I want to say is that you want to have something that you did not own yet. E.g: "pegang2". It's wrong! and always be wrong! I am not a girl with tudung labuh that have many ideas to talk about "agama". I know that I am not that "alim". Even stokin pun I tak pakai. But, please, because of the lack of iman that I have, that is why I am afraid to do those things. I am sorry. But I am afraid. And I hate this kind of guy.

3. Self-esteem.

As we know, all of us have their own pro and cons. All of us have our own good and bad thing in our life. Such as, beatiful but fool, ugly but brilliant, tall but fat, friendly but stingy. Example okay. Just for example. And what I want to express here is, please, when you want people to look at you, please....don't say like this; "Yela, I tak cantik, tak kaya, hodoh...sapela nak kat I. I patut mati je". Contoh okay? You know what. With this kind of attitude, you are abusing one's phsychology. Okay, I admit that I am not good at phsychology, but please. It is irritating. We do all have hearts. And can we force our heart to like someone that actually we don't?? And if we ever force, will the relationship be honest?

Suprise? Yes, I am too stress right now. I am sorry. This is the only place that I can shout out what deep inside my heart. I didn't mean to hurt anybody. I didn't meant to address anyone. But this is how I feel. It hurts.

Yes, it does hurt.